it happened again! even though I thought I was immune – I’m not. I fell in and it was bloody hard to get out again.
you must be thinking: what the heck?!
I’m talking about the *SOCIAL MEDIA BLACK HOLE* and I’m sure most of you will know this as a thing and have experienced it before; you spend a little too much time on the good old Instagram, YouTube, Pinterest, or whatever and suddenly you feel this pressure on your chest, a feeling of not being interesting enough or not having your shit together. well at least I did feel so and this wasn’t the first time this has happened to me.
so as I already mentioned, last weekend I spent a little too long on the internet. I was looking for autumn decoration inspiration, some fashion stuff and just scrolling down my Instagram feed. so far so good. then I went to bed and all of a sudden my brain stopped working properly or did it work too much??? I don’t know. but what I know is, I felt SO frustrated! my house wasn’t decorated enough, my wardrobe wasn’t fashionable enough, my body wasn’t thin enough, my hair wasn’t voluminous enough, my life wasn’t interesting enough and my to-do-list was longer than my arm and all I did for the last couple of hours was scrolling through this goddamn internet! I HATED the situation. but I couldn’t figure out what I was supposed to do against it. I just felt like utter shite!
my husband, who doesn’t really use any social media (he has a facebook account but hardly ever uses it) didn’t quite understand what “problem” I had. in his opinion my problems were made up and not reeeeally relevant… but nevertheless it was good to speak to someone about my feelings, even though he doesn’t see things as I do, or maybe BECAUSE he doesn’t see them the same way.
he told me our house was looking lovely and we could go an pick some pumpkins the next week, he told me I looked cute that night, he showed me some gorgeous photos of our little one and most importantly he told me that even though he doesn’t always understand my problems, he will always be there to help me find a solution. and that was the only thing that helped me escape this black hole.
now I know that not everyone has a loving husband, wife, boyfriend or girlfriend. but I’m sure most of you will have a special someone who they can talk to when they don’t feel their selves > DO IT. there’s nothing better than talking about your issue and I feel that often when I talk about it, it already seems a lot easier and more bearable. and if you don’t have someone, PLEASE PLEASE e-mail me and I promise to write back with, hopefully, an answer that will help you out.
here we go – another episode of she’s mental. do you like to read about my mental health story? is there anything specific that would interest you? please write a comment or DM. I’d love to hear from you.
oh and by the way: because I felt like utter shite I didn’t want to take photos this week – so here you have some vacay snaps ❤