she’s mental: Episode 2

first of all I wanna say a massive THANK YOU to all your lovely feedback to my latest „she’s mental“ episode – I really appreciate it and it makes me so happy to see that the pilot as well as episode 1 did help some of you!

in this weeks episode I wanna talk about body confidence! this is a topic that was a matter all my life. nowadays I’m a very confident person – but that wasn’t always the case. I used to hate the shape of my body and always had VERY big troubles getting dressed for school or going swimming with friends etc.

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I remember the days in high school when I’d rather played sick so I didn’t have to go to school because I was so ashamed of showing my body in a swimsuit (we had swimming lessons every other week). things got better a bit, when I finished school and started my apprenticeship: my environment changed and this made me feel a bit more confident about myself. I could practically restart „myself“ and be the person I really wanted to be. don’t you think this is sometimes kind of the problem? you’re like stuck in your life with the same people who know you for ages and this can feel sort of back-breaking when you wanna change something – about you as a person, about your style, about your friends… just anything.

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my taskmaster in my apprenticeship is an amazing person! he’s funny, smart and probably the most confident person I know. I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be as confident as I am now, if I’d never met him. we actually never talked about confidence or something similar ever – but the way he showed me how to live life really impressed me: he always knows what to say in every situation or if he doesn’t he can play it over very well!

so I think he’s definitely part of the reason why I am as confident as I am today.

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I’m confident about my story, about my lifestyle and most importantly about my body. I’m no size zero and will never be – but I’m ok with that. not only am I ok with that, I love my body! it has done some amazing work – my beautiful daughter reminds me of this daily. isn’t it a shame, that so many women and men hate their body just because society tells them everything above size 34 isn’t beautiful? that stretch marks are ugly? or that boobs have to be a certain size? every body (shape) deserves to be loved! and let me tell you something: there are definitely more people with stretch marks than without, more with cellulite than without and more people with a bigger size than zero!

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but for >sure< there are days when I feel like crap! there are days I don’t wanna go out because a dress doesn’t fit well, my hair looks ugly or my boobs are lower than 10 years ago! but nowadays I try to think about it in a different way. when I don’t feel good, I stand in front of a mirror and ask myself to think about five things I like about myself. it doesn’t have to be a physical thing:

  1. I like how my body was able to give birth to my beautiful daughter
  2. I like the colour of my hair
  3. I like the shape of my lips
  4. I like how I (almost) never fail to make someone laugh
  5. I like that people ask me for my opinion in different situations

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after I think about these five things I usually immediately feel better.
try it – I promise it’ll work!

do you struggle with your body confidence or have you got any good tips how to feel better? let me know in the comments – I’d love to hear from you ❤

Maruschka x

 

 

 

always KISS me goodnight ¦ Herba Collection

lately a friend of mine asked me „so now you’re full-time mom, what are you up to all day long? watching tv?“. the questioner wasn’t a parent and, I don’t wanna insult anyone, but it was a male. to be completely honest, first I was a little pissed about this question. I mean… HONESTLY? but then I indulged him – he just didn’t know any better. so I explained what I’m really up to: giving the baby a feed every 3 hours, changing nappies when needed, inventing new games to keep the baby entertained, cleaning the house, doing the groceries, doing the laundry, writing blogposts, shooting photos, testing new recipes for future blogposts, cooking dinner, giving the baby a bath, going for a walk with the little one etc. etc. etc.

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to be fair – before I was a mom I actually thought it would be much less time consuming… but cleaning the bath without a baby takes about 30 minutes > cleaning a bath -with- a baby takes me about 1.5 hours: you just can’t finish your task without interruption. all in all: a day in a life of a mom or dad is much more exhausting than a „non-parent“ could imagine.

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therefore I allow myself to have a little pamper session from time to time. in the evening my husband takes care of the baby and first I take a looong shower or a relaxing bath. I wash my hair, give my body a nice scrub (read about my fave body scrub here) and just take some time to let my mind run free. after that I love to pamper myself with a facemask – I tried a LOT of them – but by far my favourites are the KISS Wash-off / Peel-off masks. I like both of them and love to switch weekly because of the different benefits the two masks give my skin.

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the tightening 24K Gold Peel-off mask is gorgeous! it consists of honey, lavender oil and is enriched with a gold content, which moisturizes the skin. it removes impurities, detoxifies, tightens the skin and leaves it looking younger. I blooming love how easy it is to peel it off without leaving any residues.

the detoxifying charcoal wash-off mask deeply removes impurities of your skin and moisturizes it lovely. it’s super easy to wash off and leaves your skin glowing!

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while my facemask does it’s job I like to throw my feet in another fave of mine: the foot & toenail mask socks! they are absolutely brilliant! in summer my feet tend to be a bit dry and rough because I usually only wear sandals and flipflops – but with these mask socks they get soft and moisturized in minutes > WINNER!

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to let my face and foot mask soak in it takes about 15-20 minutes – in this time I lay down in my comfy bed, read a book or just have a little nap before the craziness starts all over.

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KISS also has some great sheet masks  – if you fancy one, go check them out: ClickandBeauty

what do you do to calm down after a stressful day? I’d love to hear from you ❤

Maruschka x

 

this blogpost is not sponsored, Herba Collection kindly gifted the Kiss products.

the easiest summer treat ¦ Dr. Oetker

what do you associate with strawberries? for me, strawberries are the definition of summer! I instantly think about those relaxed days at the lake, good friends and family around, laughing, swimming, playing games and > eating some yummy strawbs.

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so when I thought about baking something for a summer bbq party, I knew strawberries had to be part of it. as I don’t really wanna spend a long time in the kitchen when the sun is shining, I created this absolutely delicious and easiest summer shortcrust pastry EVER.

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the ingredients are as simple as that: 3 ¦ 2 ¦ 1 ¦ 1 > like what?!
300g flour – 200g soft butter – 100g sugar – 1 egg >> 3 ¦ 2 ¦ 1 ¦ 1

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just combine those ingredients and knead the dough until just combined. let it chill in the fridge for half an hour, then distribute the dough into the prepared (buttered and floured) muffin tin and make sure to poke some holes in it. bake the cups for approx. 15-18 min. then let them cool.

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melt 100g of dark chocolate and spread it all over the shortcrust pastry and wait until firm. then prepare the Dr. Oekter Crème Pâttiserie: just mix milk with the powder and mix for 3 mins – easiest thing in the world! distribute the cream and add strawberries or/and raspberries or any other fruit you like – et voilà: shortcrust pastry at it’s finest.

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they look absolutely fabulous and everyone loved them!

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what’s your definition of summer? I’d love to hear from you ❤

Maruschka x

 

this blogpost is not sponsored, Dr. Oetker kindly gifted me some products mentioned.

she’s mental: Episode 1

here I am, sitting on my sofa with no freaking idea how to write this… it’s been quite a while since my last blogpost and I kind of have the „blogging fear“. it’s been too long and  my expectations on myself are too high.

a couple of weeks ago I wrote a blogpost about my mental health journey and the feedback from you guys was just amazing! I received a ton of lovely messages encouraging me on continuing with posts like this, people saying they had the same struggles or just a lovely bunch who wrote to tell me they’re there for me.

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after all these amazing messages I announced my monthly series „she’s mental“ where I wanna write about mental health in all the different ways – after the announcement I pooped myself!

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I put too much pressure on myself, had a million ideas in my head but couldn’t manage to write them down and had the feeling of nothing being enough: the blogging fear!

this blog is my passion – I blooming love to write about new recipes, my favourite beauty products or just some random thoughts I wanna share with you. but the personal messages I received made me realize that actual people read my blog. and writing about a cheesecake or a nice lipstick is one thing – but writing about your mental health is a whole other story.

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week after week I tried to think about the right words to inspire people and help them with writing about how life can be challenging and how to solve the problems we all have. and day after day I tried to take some photos for the blogpost but thought my body isn’t photogenic enough.

so I decided that sharing my struggle with the writing of this blogpost would be enough for episode 1 of „she’s mental“. everybody feels overwhelmed at some point. everybody feels ’not good enough‘ at some point. everybody feels ashamed of their body at some point.

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it’s just important to work on yourself, work on your mental health. give yourself some time, breathe and think about the things you love in life, on others and on yourself. try to see yourself and your struggles from another angle: why are you ashamed of your belly when yesterday you proudly took a mirror selfie? why do you think you’re not welcome at a bbq party when everybody kindly invited you?

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truth is: nobody will judge you as hard as you do yourself. they won’t see your „not-so-flat“ belly, they will see your beautiful smile – they won’t notice your feeling of not being good enough, the will see you talking passionate about your favourite book or your favourite singer and think „I wish I would be as passionate as he/she is“. we all struggle and sometimes we all wish to be like someone else!

so let’s just celebrate our different personalities and try to love ourselves as much as our loved ones do! try to love our bodies, our quirks and even love our insecurities.

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so this is it – the first episode of „she’s mental“ is born – even if it’s not what I expected it to be, I really love it. the next episode is gonna be… I actually have no idea how it’s gonna be, but I know it will be exactly what it’s meant to be.

what do you think about my new series? I’d love to hear from you ❤

Maruschka x

Items worn in the photos:
Verna Shirt Dress, Weekday: https://bit.ly/2S1yeDY
Shoes, Birkenstock: https://bit.ly/2NDnwoG
Scrunchie with a scarf, H&M (similar one): https://bit.ly/2JrXwr0
Sunnies, H&M: https://bit.ly/2XxQEgA

p.s. the scrunchie I’m wearing on my wrist is just to remember where to start breastfeeding – forgot to take it off for the shooting but cba to take the pictures again 😉

 

this blogpost is not sponsored – I payed for all the items mentioned.

chocolate chunk muffins ¦ Dr. Oetker

the weather in Switzerland was – I really tried to say it in a nice way, but let’s just be honest – it was crap! it’s already the end of May and we didn’t really have a proper sunny and warm day for the last couple of weeks. and what do you do when it pours outside? you bake!

if you follow me for a while you will know that I really like chocolate! therefore I’m always up for a new recipe that includes my fave baking ingredient. and a while ago Dr. Oetker kindly sent me a goodie bag with some of their newest treats – including some yummie white chocolate chunks.

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as a new mom my spare time is quite limited – hence I wanted to bake something quick but no less delicious. so I did some recipe testing and finally found the perfect mixture of a soft, chewy and chocolaty muffin – and who doesn’t love a chocolate chunk muffin?

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what you need:
250g flour
2 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
150g butter
170g sugar
2 eggs
300g dark chocolate
180g sour cream
100g white chocolate chunks

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what to do:
prepare a muffin tin with 12 paper cups. mix together flour, baking powder and salt and set side. whisk soft butter with sugar for about two minutes until soft and fluffy. add in the eggs one at a time. melt your dark chocolate (I always just pour hot water over it, leave it for 3-4 minutes and then drain the water), let it cool for a bit and add it to your butter/sugar mixture. add in the flour mixture – I did it in three smaller portions. when you’ve got a nice and smooth batter, add in the sour cream with a spatula followed by the chocolate chunks. distribute the batter in the prepared baking tin and bake them for about 22 minutes at 190°C.

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I hope you’ll enjoy baking and most of all eating these muffins – I definitely did. if you bake them, don’t forget to tag me in your photos.

what is your favourite baking ingredient? I’d love to hear from you ❤

Maruschka x

my mental health story

it’s mental health awareness week and I wanted to take this opportunity to talk about this topic which was and maybe still is a tabu. I grew up in a very small village and if someone was mentally ill everyone talked about it – not in a good way! the people used to judge or even broke tie with others who had to or wanted to see a therapist. this always made me feel bad – because nobody chooses to be ill or to not feel great at all.

but nevertheless I personally thought I would never be one with mental illness. I’ve always been a very happy and confident person – therefore I never had struggles with my mental health.

about one year ago my husband and me decided to try to get a baby. luckily I fell pregnant very quickly and this made me feel like the luckiest woman on earth – for about two weeks. then it hit me! it wasn’t the constant nausea that made me feel bad. it was something deep in my chest that dragged me down every single day! I wasn’t happy, I wasn’t excited – I just felt tired of everything and everyone. if you made it this far in this blogpost you probably think „you ungrateful prick“ and this is exactly how I thought about myself. I mean, I was pregnant! so many other women wish to fall pregnant but can’t and pregnant me decides to make the world a sad and bad place > what an absolute prick. and me thinking like this made the situations even worse!

luckily I’m surrounded by the loveliest and most caring people in the world. they noticed my change and supported me in every possible way. however I still cried and felt bad A LOT but I tried to make small steps and just take everything a bit slower. I already wrote a blogpost about the things I do to make me feel better (btw I wrote that specific blogpost four weeks into pregnancy). so just make sure to read it if you feel bad atm.

our little babygirl is now four weeks – and I feel absolutely great (apart from the lack of sleep, but that’s fine anyway)! looking back it feels like I was surrounded by some kind of grey mist during my pregnancy and that mist flew by the second I looked into the eyes of our beautiful daughter Luna Jolie.

what I learned over the past couple of months: everyone can be affected by a mental illness. even if you think you’re the exception – don’t take your happy life for granted. and if it hits you: talk about it and take things slowly. you are enough. you are worthy. you are beautiful.

my mission is to rise my daughter to a kind human who doesn’t judge or take things for granted. I want her to grow up in a world where people can talk about their problems without getting locked out by society. so be kind, be grateful and be the kind of human you wanna be surrounded by.

love you loads.

Maruschka x

the moment she grabs your hair and your hubby gets the shot

the way to a heart is through the stomach ¦ Dr. Oetker

the title says it all… Valentine’s Day isn’t far away and I wanted to share a recipe with you that never fails to make someones heart burn (maybe it’s because of the amount of sugar or butter – but nevermind).

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my sister would say that I’m brownie obsessed – but let’s face it: who isn’t? so when I thought about what to bake for my loved ones I immediately wanted to make some brownies – but not just normal brownies. for this special occasion we need something that fills your heart / tummy (which in my case is probably the same) up to the fullest but doesn’t take long to bake because you wanna spend aaaall of your time with your significant other.

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therefore I went for the salted caramel brownies with a lovely rose top coat of white chocolate. I used my regular brownie recipe and just added a layer of soft caramel bonbons with a pinch of salt inbetween the chocolate layers:

100g butter
300g dark chocolate
100g milk chocolate

melt butter and chocolate in a small pan on low heat. make sure to stir all the time to not burn your chocolate. let it cool down for a bit.

4 eggs
200g sugar
1 tsp vanilla paste Dr. Oetker
2 pinches of salt
200g flour

mix all ingredients apart from flour with a mixer until light and fluffy. then add the cooled chocolate and mix until combined. add in the flour and give it a final whisk.

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pour half of the batter into a 23x33cm brownie tin then add a layer of caramel bonbons and some fleur the sel. bake at 200°C for approx. 20 minutes. let them cool down completely before you cut them out with a cookie cutter or just make squares with a knife.

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to use all of these delicious brownies, I took the leftovers from the heart shaped brownies and made cute little cake pops.

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I just mashed the leftovers together, formed small balls and dipped them into this lovely pink icing or the cute sprinkles from Dr. Oetker – it’s the easiest thing in the world and your love will think it cost you a big effort to make them (EDIT: I thought it was the easiest thing in the world… turns out cake pops are annoying little things! it took me quite a while to form them AND make them stay on the stick without falling down… but in the end they’re cute anyway)

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what’s my fave: only one >super easy< recipe and two beautiful options to make your way to your loved ones hearts ❤

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what is your favourite thing to bake for any special occasion?
I’d love to hear from you ❤

Maruschka x

my beauty picks from London & Edinburgh

it kind of became a tradition of my sister and me to visit London at the beginning of a new year. I don’t exactly know why we go there every January but we did so the last few years and I blooming love it. London is our happy place and because we’ve been there so many times it became a second home for us.

this year I could only make it for four days which is waaaaay to short but we enjoyed every second of it. then I left to meet my husband in Edinburgh to spend kind of a baby moon / city trip / wellness vacay there – what a lovely city!

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as always we (my sister and me) did a lot of shopping but this time I wasn’t very keen on buying clothes as I usually do – when nothing really fits it’s a bit of a struggle… so I focused my shopping on the really important things: beauty products! I bought loads of new things to try out but I feel like it’s too early to have a serious impression of these products so I decided to write a blogpost about some favourites I bought (and already know).

starting with the face primer I’m literally obsessed with ever since I first bought it almost a year ago… the The POREfessional: Pore Primer from Benefit. they had a special offer in which the pore primer came with a matte rescue cream and an eye cream for the same price as the primer itself. so I decided to try these other products aswell – so far I really love both of them. but the primer is still my FAVE of all of them: it’s super smooth and it instantly minimizes the look of the pores & locks on makeup.

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next one is a new favourite of mine: the Blush Crush from Lottie London. I got sent one a while ago and really liked it from the beginning – sadly it didn’t survive the journey to London so I bought a new one in Superdrug. the colours are lovely and it’s very pigmented, lasts quite long and is super affordable – WIN.

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I think I’ve never ever bought a MAC product I didn’t like – same with these two things: the MAC Studio Conceal and Correct Palette in „light“ and the MAC Shape and Shade Brow Tint in the colour „Spiked“. the concealer palette is perfect to travel: there are six shades and even if you tanned a bit during your vacay you will definitely find a perfect match. they are very creamy and easy to apply with a brush or even your fingers.

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the brow tint it a game changer! fill your brows effortlessly using the precision brush-tipped liquid liner on one end, then flip to the sponge on the other end to set your shape with the mess-free powder contained in the cap. this wax-infused powder makes brows smoother and gently holds them into place.

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another all time favourite are definitely the Real Technique Brushes: they are easy to use and give you the best result you could wish for. they launched some new brushes lately and so I definitely wanted to get my hands on them. this time I went for the Everyday Essentials which includes: RT 400 Blush,  RT 300 Deluxe Crease, RT 402 Setting, RT 200 Expert face and the Miracle Complexion Sponge – they are pretty much the same as the „old“ originals but in lovely colours.

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I also bought the Rebel Edge Trio which includes the Rebel Edge Broad Brush, the Rebel Edge Fine Brush and the Rebel Edge Medium Brush. the cropped head puts you in control to define + blend powders your way – awesome!

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the last thing I wanna talk about is the Morphe 35V Stunning Vibes Artistry Palette and to be honest with you I didn’t actually know Morphe until my sister showed me the store. now I wonder how this could happen because they are everywhere! I bloody love this palette – the colours are beautiful, super pigmented and very long lasting. and what I love about this specific palette is that you’ve got a nice choice of different colours; the nudes, the glittery colours, the blue and a nice dark one. so you can create a thousand looks with only one palette!

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oh and finally I have to mention this one: the cutest little make-up bag from Oliver Bonas. it’s soft velvet, has a lovely colour and >my fave< some beautiful star constellations on it. I already know I’m gonna use this A LOT.

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these are some of my favourite products I always re-buy when they’re empty. what are your favourite beauty products?

I’d love to hear from you ❤
Maruschka x

 

 

life update <3

ok… this feels strange… it’s been a while… it’s been a while since I uploaded my last blogpost, my last Instagram photo or my last story. and to be sitting here an writing this new one feels actually so good – yet so weird!

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a year ago I started my blog and I really > like really really < wanted it to become a place where all my passion for food, fashion and beauty would fit in and create something worth reading. and actually I was very confident with what I created until August – I adored writing blogposts and taking photos and tell you guys what I’ve been up to or loving at the moment.

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but something changed. and this is probably the biggest change and the greatest news in my life so far! I am pregnant.

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it took me quite a while to announce this on here or somewhere else in social media. and this is mostly because I felt poorly almost until week 20 – so half of my pregnancy was an absolute challenge for me and my husband (bless him, he’s amazing!). therefore I decided to take a while off of social media to balance everything and to make me feel better soon – it worked! I’m now more enthusiastic than I’ve ever been the last few weeks and I’m so excited to meet our little one soon.

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this blogpost is mostly an update about my life in general but I really want to make sure that every woman knows that it’s completley fine to not feel good or being super excited at the beginning of your pregnancy. everything is new and your body has to do a lot more than it’s used to: creating a new life! this is bloody amazing – but don’t make yourself feel bad if you’re not that happy or over the moon – this can be super overwhelming but it gets better with every week > I promise.

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my husband and my family were absolutely incredible! they helped me to see everything positive and gave me the support I really needed. Surround yourself with people you love spending time with and avoid people who make you feel uncomfortable or guilty about the fact that you’re not (yet) super excited. I will write another blogpost about my routine to feel good but for now I just wanted to let you guys know that I’m creating a little wonder and that I’m SO excited for the next couple of months.

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what have you been up to the last few weeks – I’d love to hear from you ❤

Maruschka x

it’s ok to have a bad day…

this is not the August favourites post I announced a couple of days ago. and you know why? because I didn’t really enjoy a lot of things in August – and this is completely fine.

I had some rough days in August and to be honest I actually can’t tell you why! it’s not that I don’t wanna tell you why – I just can’t because I don’t really know it myself! so when I started to write my August favourites post I felt very forced and I don’t like to write about something that isn’t me or isn’t 100% true!

so I decided to tell you guys what makes me feel better when it comes to days where I feel down and nothing seems to be right.

first of all, as I already said: it’s ok to have a bad day or a bad couple of days! don’t force yourself to fit in or to be happy all the time. even though you know you should because, as in my case, your life is at it’s best at the moment and you couldn’t wish for anything more. it’s ok!

treat yourself! I love breakfast – and when I feel down I like to treat myself with a big old brunch! I make myself pancakes or waffels, buy a ton of fresh fruit (because they seem to lift my mood) and enjoy my breakfast all by myself or with my husband while watching Netflix (at the moment I’m really into Orange is the new Black). if you don’t enjoy food as much as I do – do something you love but maybe can’t afford every month like having your nails done or go to a massage or book in a beautiful spa. just make sure you only do it for yourself and nobody else!

have some me time! for me it’s so important to have some time alone especially because I usually don’t really have time for myself. as I work in an open farm architechtures office there is always a lot going on and when I’m home my hubby’s normally home aswell or I spend my evenings with friends or family. therefore I really need this time once in a while and I make sure nobody disturbes me.

take a bath! even if you’re not a big „bathtub-person“ – just do it. it calms you down and the warm water feels like a really warming hug. I like to leave my phone outsite the bathroom and read a book instead. social media runs fast and sometimes can be a bit overwhelming – just make sure to take some breaks now and then.

after the above mentioned tasks it’s important for me to socialize again and the easiest way to start this again is to meet your closest friends or family. when I feel rough my sister knows how to make me feel better and after a few minutes spent with her everything seems to be a little less shit. so make sure to see people who know you and know exactly how to treat you.

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it’s going to be ok – I promise. so just take your time to feel better and be patient. I like to look through old vacation photos or if you’re already married watch back your wedding video or photos – they always cheer me up!

and what I realized while writing this post: write your thoughts down – this really helped me see everything from a different angle and I already feel a lot better!

I will write new blogposts with my happy attitude soon – but just not for now – and that’s totally fine! HAVE A GOOD DAY – YOU’RE WORTH IT!

Maruschka x